I have noticed this memory disparity with my reflections series; my siblings and I remember Alex’s birth a bit differently. This does not bother me at all, merely reinforces my desire to write in real time. I never really thought about how time can change memories, but it does. A very interesting phenomenon.
I am committed to writing in real time, and not change the past. Although, in the internet world it is possible to delete and/or edit past entries, I will not. The purpose of this year long diary is to chronicle Alex’s life as it happens, not as I wished it to happen. I am not sure if these are entirely different things or not.
An example of past accounts I will not change are basketball related. When I read my entries from the fall – I see, based on last year's team knowledge, how excited I was for the season to start. This year’s experience has turned out to be a big disappointment. However, it has also served to reinforce my overriding philosophy of life with Alex; hope for the best and adjust as needed.
In many cases, such as school, basketball/sports, and social interactions, adjustment involves serious intervention on my part. This does not cause me much anxiety, as I said before, this is part of my responsibility as the parent of this extraordinary girl. I am proud to help Alex realize her dreams while educating others along the way. We will make a difference!
This leads me to today’s entry. I am still pleased with my horrible misuse of words and a catsup/catch-up is in order. So a couple of quick updates:
- John is still John, he has not given in on the radio station, and Alex had not given in on calling him Dad. A stalemate.
- Sarah will be coming with her brother in February to ski….Alex is counting down the days until she sees her best friend (me too!).
- Weight is still an issue, although no pounds gained, none lost – partially from sitting on the bench during basketball.
- Alex does believe that Santa Claus brings presents to young children.
- Jack the frog is alive and recuperating from his UPS journey.
- We are all recovering from our sadness of 2009 by working on happy memories. Lucy is Alex’s wallpaper on her cell phone.
- I have not won the lottery.
In closing, I’d like to thank everyone who has been reading our story for the encouragement, information sharing and general comments I receive almost every day. I have had over 6,000 hits so far – and if my experience can help only one family or child – this is more than worth the effort.